Thoughts

First things first. I just want to say that I guess I should consider it a compliment that the way I live my life is indicative of going to church? I don’t know. But what I do know is this: do I believe in God? Yes, wholeheartedly. Do I pray? Yes. When I tell someone I’m going to pray do I do it? Yes. Am I perfect? No. Absolutely not, farthest thing from it.  I am merely a sinner, saved by Grace. I believe Jesus came to this earth as a babe, and then died on a cross, taking and covering my sins. I believe that he rose again and I pray, with faith, that He hears me and will answer my prayers (even if it is an answer I don’t like).  If all of these things make me a fake, churchy person…well I guess I’m guilty. I do not claim to be perfect, I do not claim to have a perfect life, and I sin daily. I fall short daily. I lose my temper frequently. I am not perfect, and pretty sure I’ve never claimed to be.

I do say frequently how thankful I am for the life God gave me. How could I not be? I was raised by two parents that were flawed, but that loved me. My mom took us to church most every time the doors were opened. They taught us respect and values and hard work. I am blessed to have a good job that I worked my way up to, a home that Matt works hard for us to live in, a beautiful baby boy that I endured fertility treatments and prayed lots of prayers for. I have always considered myself to have a “normal” family unit, as in aunts, uncles, grandparents, cousins that were supportive and loving. The older I get, and more people I come in contact with, I have learned that the family unit we have, is somewhat rare. Not all people have the type of family we have and I have come to realize, we are incredibly blessed.

Do I go to church every Sunday? Nope. I know I need to and I should, not so that I can continue to be “perfect” HA!; but to continue to learn and grow and to fellowship with other believers.

I am just unsure as to why every time, someone disagrees with you or you disagree with someone else, immediately you’re judging. And after all, we know judging is a sin. You know what? Gluttony is a sin. Lying is a sin. Stealing is a sin. Sex outside of marriage is a sin. Adultery is a sin. Point is, we all sin. Does that make it okay? No. But why do people automatically say “you’re not supposed to judge!! Judging is a sin”.  

This post is kind of all over the place; my point of it is: I am not perfect. I do not have a perfect life. I struggle daily. I have hurts daily. I sin daily. I also pray daily, thank God for what I have daily and try to live a good life. If that makes me fake and churchy, well so be it I suppose.